OOO my goodness. It's been too long. I kind of stopped updating once I got home from Twin. Sorry about that girlies. I've been updating you guys other ways though. Bergen we talk tons cause we hang out, and ever since that concert, I've texted you lots more Hailey. But I'm determined to keep this going so yay Hailey for updating today!! So now it's my turn.
Boys are pretty much the stress of my life right now. Well...mostly just one in particular. I really don't know what to do about Dustin. I don't want to get married and he knows that. But I don't know...it's just so hard for me to let go! It might be because he's my first boyfriend and we've been together for 2 1/2 years....but it could also be because I love him and I'm meant to be with him. But I don't know! Dustin is one of my best friends, I can be myself completely around him! And he's the same way. We have so much in common, but not at the same time which I think is a good thing. He's finally doing something with his life and he CAN'T back out of this one. He's doing it and that's that. It's good for him and as hesitant as I am about it, I'm really proud of him. But what the hell am I supposed to do?? I know what you girlies think....I know what everyone thinks about it. And I've been given a lot of great advice. The best of which was probably, "Do what makes you happy." I'm trying to think of what's going to make me happiest in the future. Either way is going to be really hard I think. We've talked about it a lot...lots of tears...lots of late night talks. But I'm still confused as ever! And I'm running out of time............
On to another subject I guess, because I feel that you guys already know what's going on with Dustin and I. Um...what else is there? Well I've been working and it's good. Sometimes Big J's annoys me, but I really am blessed. To have a job at all this summer. Broc is a good boss and although I wish I'd get more hours, I understand why I don't. I'm having a great summer though...despite the stress. I'm always stressed about something, so I don't even take stress into my "happiness" consideration anymore. Did that even make sense? Ha whatever.
So that Chris guy has been talking to me a lot. Text, fb chat, and msn messenger. Obviously nothing is going to happen because I have a boyfriend and I'm not that kind of a person. But I'm still allowed to say that he's cute haha.
Gotta get working on a scholarship application so maybe paying for school will be a tiny bit easier. I'm afraid I will probably procrastinate this....well wait...I already have. Haha. I'll end up cramming everything into a few days because that's what I always do with EVERYTHING! But...it always gets done and hey, I came out of my first year of college alright right?? Haha.
Let me just end this update with one thing. I love you girls and I am truly grateful for everything in my life, including you girls! I think that it's possible that this blog saved my sanity last semester. Ha, Bergen I've been having a great time with you! And Hailey, I can't wait to see you soon and then in a couple months I'll be much closer! Love you girls!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Update
Wow we haven't updated this thing in FOREVER!!!! I have a story or two that I feel the need to share so I'ma tell you on here.
First: So I've been going on a lot of dates with this guy named Mike. I work with him and he's a super sweet guy. He's twenty five and kinda short and chubby (not super chubby but not like rockin bod) with pointy ears. He reminds me of a happy little elf. Anyway, I think he likes me, because he takes me out all the time and everyone that I work with and talk to about it say he likes me too. Well, I don't think I like him like that. I like him as a friend and he is a party and a half to be with but that is all. The boy doesn't even tell me I look nice...like ever! I even tried really hard to look nice one day and he didn't say anything. But ya, I just am not that into him, like there is no attraction and so everyone gives me crap for going on dates with him. They say its leading him on and he'll think I like him if I keep saying yes. What do you think? Can't I just go on the dates to have fun? They all think I should be straight up and tell him that I don't feel the same way...but do I really need to if he doesn't bring it up or try anything himself? What do you think girls? He asks me out every weekend (except this last one because he was at a family reunion) but he doesn't live in Provo anymore because of an internship so he's only here on the weekend, he can't be thinking anything more than dating fun anyway right? IDK.
Second: Tyler. Ugh. Enough said right there. So awhile back he asked me to lunch (again!) and I was like, I can't take my lunch break for a few more hours cuz I had just gotten to work. So he was like "if i wait will you come with me?" kinda thing and I beat the idea around (obviously not!) and was like, "you'd have to wait a few hours" and he was like "so you'll go" and I was like "what do you want from me" and he was like "if I got what I wanted it wouldn't just be lunch" so then I was like, "No! I can't go to lunch with you. ever." then he got all "why" and retarded like usual and after work he called me and was like "why won't you hang out with me...why do you even bother talking to me...why'd you answer the phone if you don't want to talk to me" and was just being dumb. So I told him he was being dumb and that if it was too hard for him to control his thoughts around me at work than we couldn't be friends outside of work and that he is engaged and if he wanted to hang out we'd have to do a double date thing with his wifey there. He got all butt sore, like usual. Then things simmered down and it was just friendly chatting at work (ps I told him no more crued humor about me cuz I couldn't tell if he was joking and it wasn't good that he was even thinking those things so he got a lil better about that too) then last weekend he started txtin me and was like I'm finally over you. and then we did a benefit car wash for a guy that we worked with. I was the only girl out there so of course I got picked on. Tyler and I got in a mini water fight and then yesterday he came up to me at work and was like "Hailey you are fun to be around that's why I always want to hang out and we're over eachother so its cool. And we did fine last weekend at the carwash..." anywho then we had a boring convo and he said something about me selling myself on the internet and I said that I couldn't do that because I was getting married in April. (of course I'm not really getting married in April, though Peter will be back and we could have dated for a few months by then :) jk, but really) and he got super pissed. He was like "who is it? I bet he's some fag" and that kind of crap and then was just being a total jerk to me. And he was off the clock so I told him I didn't want to see him and to leave me alone and go home. So then later he txts me and is like so you really found someone to marry and I was like dude don't worry about it. Ya, so much for being over me. If he was, he wouldn't have cared. Ugh this boy is like a bag of drama that I just can't deal with. Then I had a dream that his girlfriend found out about us and was crying and all mad at me (but she looked like Alexa, Phelan's girlfriend so that was weird) and that was dumb. Boys are ridiculous.
Brady txted me yesterday. We had a decent convo, just really chillaxed and he decided that when I go home next i need to go bridge jumping with him. I don't know how I feel about him...Allen txts me almost every day still and is taking the weekend off work so he can chill with everyone...and me. I don't know what to do about these boys.
I got two emails from Peter. Consecutively in two weeks! I was so pleased! I miss him but I keep telling myself that he doesn't like me and that I am to him what Cody was to me, a destresser, and a way to get some ncmo before i had to go. Ugh fml. I want to diet and get skinny and cute so when he comes back he really will like me a ton...but ha we all know how well I diet...I'm doing this detox thing right now and all it does is bloat me up and kill my stomache, wtf these things are supposed to make me lose weight! UGH!
I have been getting emails from Evan, he's doing pretty well I believe.
Anyway, love you girls, tell me what you think. Can't wait to see you!!!
Peace out!
First: So I've been going on a lot of dates with this guy named Mike. I work with him and he's a super sweet guy. He's twenty five and kinda short and chubby (not super chubby but not like rockin bod) with pointy ears. He reminds me of a happy little elf. Anyway, I think he likes me, because he takes me out all the time and everyone that I work with and talk to about it say he likes me too. Well, I don't think I like him like that. I like him as a friend and he is a party and a half to be with but that is all. The boy doesn't even tell me I look nice...like ever! I even tried really hard to look nice one day and he didn't say anything. But ya, I just am not that into him, like there is no attraction and so everyone gives me crap for going on dates with him. They say its leading him on and he'll think I like him if I keep saying yes. What do you think? Can't I just go on the dates to have fun? They all think I should be straight up and tell him that I don't feel the same way...but do I really need to if he doesn't bring it up or try anything himself? What do you think girls? He asks me out every weekend (except this last one because he was at a family reunion) but he doesn't live in Provo anymore because of an internship so he's only here on the weekend, he can't be thinking anything more than dating fun anyway right? IDK.
Second: Tyler. Ugh. Enough said right there. So awhile back he asked me to lunch (again!) and I was like, I can't take my lunch break for a few more hours cuz I had just gotten to work. So he was like "if i wait will you come with me?" kinda thing and I beat the idea around (obviously not!) and was like, "you'd have to wait a few hours" and he was like "so you'll go" and I was like "what do you want from me" and he was like "if I got what I wanted it wouldn't just be lunch" so then I was like, "No! I can't go to lunch with you. ever." then he got all "why" and retarded like usual and after work he called me and was like "why won't you hang out with me...why do you even bother talking to me...why'd you answer the phone if you don't want to talk to me" and was just being dumb. So I told him he was being dumb and that if it was too hard for him to control his thoughts around me at work than we couldn't be friends outside of work and that he is engaged and if he wanted to hang out we'd have to do a double date thing with his wifey there. He got all butt sore, like usual. Then things simmered down and it was just friendly chatting at work (ps I told him no more crued humor about me cuz I couldn't tell if he was joking and it wasn't good that he was even thinking those things so he got a lil better about that too) then last weekend he started txtin me and was like I'm finally over you. and then we did a benefit car wash for a guy that we worked with. I was the only girl out there so of course I got picked on. Tyler and I got in a mini water fight and then yesterday he came up to me at work and was like "Hailey you are fun to be around that's why I always want to hang out and we're over eachother so its cool. And we did fine last weekend at the carwash..." anywho then we had a boring convo and he said something about me selling myself on the internet and I said that I couldn't do that because I was getting married in April. (of course I'm not really getting married in April, though Peter will be back and we could have dated for a few months by then :) jk, but really) and he got super pissed. He was like "who is it? I bet he's some fag" and that kind of crap and then was just being a total jerk to me. And he was off the clock so I told him I didn't want to see him and to leave me alone and go home. So then later he txts me and is like so you really found someone to marry and I was like dude don't worry about it. Ya, so much for being over me. If he was, he wouldn't have cared. Ugh this boy is like a bag of drama that I just can't deal with. Then I had a dream that his girlfriend found out about us and was crying and all mad at me (but she looked like Alexa, Phelan's girlfriend so that was weird) and that was dumb. Boys are ridiculous.
Brady txted me yesterday. We had a decent convo, just really chillaxed and he decided that when I go home next i need to go bridge jumping with him. I don't know how I feel about him...Allen txts me almost every day still and is taking the weekend off work so he can chill with everyone...and me. I don't know what to do about these boys.
I got two emails from Peter. Consecutively in two weeks! I was so pleased! I miss him but I keep telling myself that he doesn't like me and that I am to him what Cody was to me, a destresser, and a way to get some ncmo before i had to go. Ugh fml. I want to diet and get skinny and cute so when he comes back he really will like me a ton...but ha we all know how well I diet...I'm doing this detox thing right now and all it does is bloat me up and kill my stomache, wtf these things are supposed to make me lose weight! UGH!
I have been getting emails from Evan, he's doing pretty well I believe.
Anyway, love you girls, tell me what you think. Can't wait to see you!!!
Peace out!
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