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Hey chicas!
I have a lot to be grateful for and I think that I should be more aware of such things. Evan is on his way to the middle East right now and I am sick to my stomache scared for him. I love him so much and am so grateful that we have been best friends for forever. I am also grateful (brace yourselves) for his girlfriend. She has good standings and makes him happy and Evan deserves to be the happest man on the earth.
I am grateful for my mom, I swear I call her a minimum of once daily but most of the time it's three times a day. We can talk about nothing and about everything all at once and she gets me more than anyone in the world.
I am grateful for these two really great friends that I have. There names are Danielle and Bergen and they have made college bareable through something so simple as a blog and midnight phone calls for the times I had my breakdowns.
I have decided that boys aren't worth the stress they put on me and that if I keep myself in the straight and narrow and do what I am supposed to do, that things will work out...its that faith thing again Berg.
I am grateful for Becky and her driving skills as well. Yes friends, I am coming home!!! Becky and I head home Thursday after nine (because I work until nine). I am so excited to see you girls!!! Danielle, Bullet was awesome and I was seriously depressed when you guys left, I miss having friends so much. And Berg, I haven't seen you in FOREVER so this weekend yall better be free. And I get to see my babies!!! Tonight Mom was having a hard time getting them to bed so she told them that if they didn't go to bed she wouldn't let me come home and so they both went straight to bed! Funny huh!!! Ha :) cuties
Anywho, I have plenty of boy stories for you but I'd like to save them for when I see you this weekend. You two are great. Love ya!!
Peace out~

Home again, Home again...jiggity jig.

It is amazing to me how fast time flies. Today is my last Thursday in Moscow Idaho. Tomorrow my parents will be here. Saturday, we pack up all of my belongings and Sunday we chance the 10 hour drive back to my home sweet home in dear old Saint Anthony. I would like to take a moment to reflect:

I never thought this apartment would ever be anything more than that...an apartment. But I have been here almost a year and it really has come to be my place of comfort and relaxation. I never thought I would get used to its bare walls and empty refrigerator, but believe it or not, this empty apartment, is my second home. As I walk from room to room (a short distance) I am amazed that our mattresses flung on the floor and our little plastic 3-drawer dressers really became the norm. I am glad that this tiny apartment gave me shelter, but I don't think I'll miss it as much as I miss my home. Maybe when I look into my room and see boxes of my stuff, packed up and ready to move, I'll remember the good times I had here. But for now, I am ready to leave it all behind and start up again in a new town.

My parents will be driving up to see us tomorrow. I am beyond excited. I haven't seen them since Christmas and that is a long time to go without my mom and dad! I am thrilled to be going home and to take a break from college life. I still have a lot to do in order to prepare for ISU, but I know that everything will fall into place. I guess I just have to have a little faith---or whatever it is that people think makes things fall into place.

Things I have Learned from my First year at College:

--I now fully appreciate my mother and everything it takes to manage a home, budget, family and life.

--I now know that I am a severely emotional person who needs more experience in expressing these emotions.

--I now love and depend on my friends so much more than I did before.

--You cannot live off of top ramen and mac and cheese

--Living with your sibling is NOT a good idea.

--There's a reason for everything.

--Pulling all nighters can be a bad thing.

--Lock your door behind you!

--Be more open minded.

--I can dye my own hair without hurting anyone.

--Life is too short to be too serious.

--Laugh at the little things, smile at the big.

--Working out makes me feel good.

--I am comfortable with my body and looks.

--Boys are still immature in college and will be until their mid 40's.

--Marriage is NOT the answer.

--I love you two so much and am glad we managed to stay friends over this long distance and hard period!

--I can't wait to see you both and have a rocking summer.

That's all for now, but I just wanted to take a little time to reflect and think about this past year. I learned a lot more than what is on the list, but I wanted to keep the post semi-short enough. I'm glad we started this Blog girlies. It was a good idea. When I think of us, I will always remember that night in the hot tub when we decided that we wanted a way to keep in touch. Danielle is right, it strayed from it's original purpose MANY times. But I sort of like it better this way. Hailey, hang in there doll. We are planning a summer intervention :) Love you both. And I remain forever yours. One of Three Chicks in a Hot Tub!

Danielle it's exciting being done with a year of college huh!!! Hang in there Berg, you're almost there!!! Dude, Danielle, I know what it's like to get attached to pets and I'm sorry sweetie. If I were there, I'd hug you. When my favorite kitten, Fidget, died, I made a whole scrap book about him...and I don't scrap book!
I'm stoked for the Bullet concert!!! It's what keeps me going...well, that and my new found love for Lost. It's an exciting show for me.
My life has been relatively drama free. I got stood up for a date on Friday but I wasn't really looking forward to it so I didn't really care...I txted Brandon on Saturday night to get his roommate's number so I could go to Matt's mission companion's homecoming with him but Brandon only said hi and whats up and then when I asked for the number he stopped txting me. Um my roommate hasn't talked to me too much, but I think that may be my fault. I think I may be intimidating and I think she knows I was upset about her inviting him over. Oh well, I'm over it. Um, Brad Pitt in Spanish is still just eye candy...but super great eye candy...I'll work on being more social with him. There's a new guy at work that I talk to but he has a girlfriend I believe. Oh and speaking of guys with girlfriends, Tyler keeps talking to me. He is actually txting me right now. We now sell chew and work and he bought some so I gave him this "i'm super disappointed in you" look and I think it got to him. He and I had a talk a few days ago and he was all "why couldn't you have just given me a chance and dated me" "i'm not sure i'm ready to get married and be in this relationship forever" and "I'm not happy and she doesn't like me" and blah blah blah. I kinda ripped him a new one and told him that he got me in the begining because I felt sorry for him and believed that things were bad between them but that i'm not stupid and people don't get engaged willingly when they are miserable together so that i didn't want to hear his crap...ha then today he was like "don't hate me, i know you love me." and then "don't you love me" i was like I don't believe in love lol its terrible because i am lonely and in my darkest hours i actually think about him...its TERRIBLE! No worries, i won't give in.
Then Brady and I were talking and he was like, I miss you, when are you coming back and will you let me know. and i told him about bullet and he sounded like he wanted to come! i told him i was going with my twin and old concert buddies but he still sounded tempted, he's lik i'm not too busy on tuesdays. idk it was weird.
Then I dreamt about Conner. It was a very steamy dream. That's all I'll say, and now I can't stop thinking about him! It's making me nuts!!!
So pretty much my drama is all just bad memories that arose within the week and are festering in my head. On the bright side, I have a ton of homework to do but waste my time online. I eat everything in sight but have decided to try the anorexic thing :) and i think i'll try to go home over memorial day weekend, woot woot! lol
I miss you both and love you guys tons! i can't wait to see you guys!!! Less than a week danielle!!!!
Peace Out.

Nearing the End..........YEEEESSSSS!

Hey girlies, sorry I haven't updated in a while. It doesn't mean I haven't read your updates :D Let me just say that I love how much I've stayed in contact with you girls. I think this blog was quite possibly the best idea we ever had. Although it strayed pretty far from it's original purpose, I am happy with how it ended up.

Lately it's been pretty good. I am finishing up school (with decent grades too) and having Dustin here has been fun. I still don't know what's going to happen with us in a few months......but that's a completely different story altogether. We haven't talked about it much.....but we will. And when we do, I'll keep you guys updated. Today has been kinda sad. One year ago Tilly died :( I don't know what you guys think of getting attached to pets, but geeze.....it was hard. I kinda wish I could have been with my family the past couple days, but I guess I'll have to wait.

On a lighter note, I'm moving home in 4 days, I'm getting my hair died, and I'm going to a kick ass concert in about a week! I'm am sooooooooooo looking forward to that. I'm really looking forward to seeing you girls again. It's been a long 4 months without you guys. Anyway, I will see you both soon! Hang in there because we have some fun times ahead of us :P Love you both!

Whoa oh oh it's MAGIC you know oh oh

Okay so I don't know why that's the title of this blog, but it came to me as I was typing so I'm just going to go with it. My life is relatively more drama free than yours Hailey, and may I just say now that he is a douche bag. And I totally called it. Just saying. Punch him. Then punch him again...then call him a f*cking douche bag...then punch him again. It'll be therapeutic for both of you. And maybe then he'll leave you the eff alone. Anyway, I have a week and a half left until my first year of college is over and may I just say that I feel way too young to be finishing my freshmen year of college? As I was walking home from aerobics today I thought about how amazing it is to me that we're all finishing up. Sometimes it seems like it has been forever since I've been at home, sometimes it seems like it's going by way too fast, but either way it's over and it's scary.

My parents are coming up to help us move next weekend and I am WAY excited to see my parents and to drive home with them and to start my summer adventures. I am not too excited about living at home again, but it's cheap and I won't starve, so I guess there are the perks. I will start working at Big J's again too...joy? I'm not quite sure how I feel about it at the moment, but a job is a job and money is what comes from having one. I guess I feel lucky to even have one set up.

I am already stressing over my math final...if I don't pass I'm going to be VERY upset. I am hoping for at least a C. If I don't get that I am going to punch the nearest wall. My other classes I'm not terribly worried about. World Religions final is making a book, which is no sweat I just have to get the supplies and find the time...then there is English. Paper due on Thursday...also no sweat. I guess I'm relatively lucky that I don't have MAJOR tests to study for. Although, stupid me, I'm already going psycho over the load I've signed up for at ISU. I'm already dreading finals week and I haven't even started.

You know the weird thing about my whole switching school drama is that things are falling into place much better than they ever did when I was trying to come up to Moscow. I wonder if that's a sign or if I just know how to navigate college better now that I'm already into it. Either way, I am loving that my registration and such is going pretty well. None of my scholarship information has transfered yet so right now I owe the school a lot of money, which freaks me out. But hopefully that will all fall into place too.

I really miss you two and am sad that when I get home you won't be there to help me deal with life's struggles. I can't believe I have to spend a summer without you Hailey. It will be so weird to be home and not have you here. I am so excited to spend time with you, Danielle. I guess it's bittersweet. We are definitely going to have an epic summer, and yes Hailey, that includes coming to spend a kick ass weekend with you! But it's still going to be weird to be home and working and having less friends there and...I don't know it's just going to be psycho. I'll deal though. I always do.

Miss you two tons! Keep me updated with your drama and lives and let's have a final chat session before Danielle and I move back home! Love you, miss you! Over and Out.

DOUCHE FREAKING BAGGGG!!!

If you read the title...yes, i'm a lil upset. Hailey got home from work yesterday. Ate weight watchers ice cream bar for dinner. Watched the office. Then Trevor came over and did homework with me (I used to be crushin on him but now not so much) anyway that was fun. Then Becky and her boy toy came over, Trevor left, and the three of us went hot tubing. Then at midnight we got kicked out of the hot tub and so I went back to my apartment. My roommate and her boytoy were out in the hall and I turned to becky and was like I can't get away from relationships it sucks! Then we hugged and I told her boyfriend that if he hurt her I'd gut him like a fish with my bare fingers and then I went inside. I walk inside and...FREAKING BRANDON AND HIS GIRLFRIEND ARE CUDDLING ON MY COUCH!!! WTF!! My roommate was there chatting away with them and I was like hi, then walked out. I was mad about three things: 1 that my roommate invited him and his girlfriend into my apartment, 2 that no one gave me a warning like the two in the hall both know about him and me but didn't feel like saying oh btw hailey you might not want to go inside for a while, and 3 that he had the balls to bring his girlfriend into my apartment and then be like HEY like nothing ever happened between us. Yes I get that I was his lil action doll and that we weren't anything more than beneficial friends but to just stop talking to me, fall off the face of the planet, and then bring the new flavor of the week to my apartment? UGH!!!! I was so distraught I was shaking. Then I went for a run, in the middle of the night, by myself because I was soooo grrrr. And when I walked into the hall my roomie was like "you're going running by yourself in the middle of the night" me "ya" "thats dangerous don't you think" "hmmm guess it is." "do you have your phone" ipod in and went running. I get back she's still in the hall, "That was a short run" I was like, I have class at 8am so i need to sleep." then I wanted to say, wow captain obvious your so good at keeping me posted on all the small crap that i don't care about, where were you when i needed warning like i still would have gone in but i'da been prepared to be like, hey brandon hows it been, oh you must be the new flavor of the week, good luck with that, ok its past midnight get the f out of my apartment :) see, it could have gone so much better than, ah! hi...k bye. ugh i'd say i'm royally pissed but i'm more just uber annoyed. like UBER ANNOYED!!!! grrr.
then brad pitt wasn't in class today and I look super cute :( fml.
Peace out.