So tired...

I'm so unbelievably tired.  I feel like I could sleep for the next week and it still wouldn't be enough.  I know I shouldn't complain, I don't have finals coming up, or anything like that.  But I am just worn out.  I feel like I'm always running on overtime.  SLEEEEEEP.  Give me sleep.  I think the bears had it right...hibernation is the shit.


Hai--I'm sorry you're having such a rough time.  Sounds like you got a pretty good guy if he'll put cream on your hemroid.  (I'm so sorry!!) You're hair is cute by the way.  It's funny, I'm growing mine, you cut yours...the world's in a perfect place.


Danielle--I'm excited for your trip to Ethiopia!  That'll be way fun.  Just be safe! A small white girl is going to stand out big time there!  :)  Sounds like you're keeping pretty busy with the music scene there.  I'm jealous.  I need to go to more concerts.  How's Taylor?? Update!


Brad came up to see me a few weekends ago!  It was SOOOOOO nice.  We haven't seen each other in over a year, which is ridiculous for us.  It was a lot of fun and it makes me miss all of my friends!  You had BETTER ALL COME UP FOR MY WEDDING!  I will be super sad if you don't. 


Speaking of wedding.  Things are good.  Last weekend we had pre-pictures taken.  Amanda took them and they were a lot of fun.  The weather was nice for once, and they turned out super cute.  Amanda is editing them so I'll share when we have the final product.


Well I'm working so I should go!   Have a great day! Miss you all!


Bergen

Hair

I'm thinking about chopping off my hair. it is past my boobs, which with size D boobs means that is drapes around them and looks like I am always wearing a fat sweater!!! It bugs. Any suggestions?
Also, married life is great, but life in general sucks right now. I got off paxil cold turkey, I am almost done with all of the withdrawals and I am back in therapy...but!! The nuskin crap Michael gave me is meant for old people so I broke out (like five zits!), I have panic attacks all the time which are really unpleasant and itchy, my lip swelled up to the size of a small child last night and hurt like crazy, and I have a hemroid! I don't exactly know what it is but Michael has to put creme in a very unpleasant spot on me twice a day. He is a saint!!! I would be dead without him. Literally, I couldn't have found a more perfect man. Berg, you need to ask Chris if he'd be willing to wipe your butt cuz you never know, it could happen!!! I am an embarrassment but Michael stays with me :) 
Also, Danielle, I am super happy that you like your job. I hate mine. There are literally like three people that I enjoy working with and the rest of the people just treat me like crap...plus I get paid like crap, so I am in the market for a new job. 
Finals start tomorrow, I am so ready to be done with them, ugh and stressing mega over them because I haven't gone to any class in a month!!! Oh well, on Thursday my stresses will be over and Michael and I are going camping!!!
I can't say that I like Provo, I feel like I have no place to call my home. But I know that Michael is my home so I will be content here for as long as I have to be. I'm glad you like Logan though dear.
Berg, how are the plans coming? Do you have a song picked? Are you going to do dancing? Like a daddy-daughter dance and bride-groom dance I mean? What's your dress like? Do you have pictures or will that spoil it? and can you take a few days to go to Boise with us? 
Also, Evan is coming home for a week the beginning of May. I am soooo excited. Except, last time I talked to him on the phone I was having a melt down and fought with him over me not going to my dad's when I was in town and I ended up just hanging up on him...haven't talked to him since so I am kinda thinking he's still upset with me... :( 
Anyway, that's all for now...I may go chop my hair off tonight, no one knows...but I want to donate it so that will be fun! :) 
Love you both ladies!!! 
Oh wait I totally forgot, I can't believe Alyssa got married! I am way excited for her. I used to work with Jared and they didn't even know each other and now they are married! I told my mom and she was shocked, like when I told her that Matt got engaged, because these innocent people now have to have sex! I don't know I just figured they weren't the type but I guess everyone is lol that's how the world survives of course! But it's still weird to me ;) 
Ok, bye for now. <3

I like Logan :)

Hello beautiful best friends :)


Berg, I'm glad everything is coming together! I can definitely get black flats, no problem! How is St. Anthony? I used to come home SOOO often, but I've been home once this semester and...three times last semester. I never come home anymore....there's just no time!


To be honest, I'm starting to like Logan. Yes, we have our on and off moments, but I LOVE living with Brad and Zach. I really love my job....Smith's Marketplace wouldn't seem that great, but I work with some awesome people! And I'm working full time in the garden center over the summer so I'll get to be outside....playing in the dirt! :) And then Taylor is pretty great too. I'll try to get some pictures up soon...but I don't have any right now! He got me this huge stuffed sheep for Easter and a bunch of candy. The sheep is named Randy :) He's fun...Taylor is...ha. We're planning a trip to Cali after the semester ends.......so I think we might be dating...we just haven't had that relationship talk yet. It's probably gonna happen pretty soon though.


Berg, I'm sorry I never really filled you in on the Tim thing. I will dedicate a whole blog post to it sometime soon, because it's a long story! I didn't really talk to anyone about it. Blah!


Hailey, yeah we need to plan the Boise trip! I think a few days is more than enough time :) I'm still raising money for my trip. It was already all due, but I took out a student loan (I KNOW MY FIRST STUDENT LOAN!!!! don't worry I'm paying it off this summer) to pay for it all right now. We need a big Skype session! And Berg....it would be great if you want to come!!!! And you're not too busy. The three of us....we definitely need some time.


Anyway, I have so much more to say, but I've gotta run to work! Love you both :)


-Danielle

one more thing!

okay, so I am looking back through old blogs, which I think are hilarious. There is one that I wrote in 2010 called "news" and the very beginning it talks about a boy named Luke and how I wasn't gonna see him because he only wanted in my pants, the kid works with me now! Bahaha, weird. 
Also, I was reading through the ones back in the day when Allen had a thing for me and i had a thing for Grayson and nothing was happening in the sickening circle, I juggled a lot of guys back in the day...so weird to think that now I am married, with one guy for the rest of my life!! It's sooo great! Soon Berg will be and then you are next Danielle, unless Amanda beats you to it but I don't know how her dating life is going...so on my list, you are next! :) Juggle while you can and have no regrets when you pick one! Love you both
wait one more thing again, ok so i also wrote one called doouuchhe baaag and it was about a kid i had a fling with here, i love the terms i used, such as, "I know I was just his action doll" psh i'd never call myself that now! And how i called the kid in my spanish class Brad Pitt bahahaha we have come a long way ladies. Oh and one last more thing, read the one I posted a year ago called catching up. it was a year ago almost exactly and right when i was starting to fall in love with michael...you don't have to read it...but i'm in a slump right now and these are cheering me up. I copied it and sent it to him...besides the bits about peter and conner it was really cute :) ok now i'm done. Love you guys!

Wahoo No Converse!

I am thoroughly excited that we don't have to wear converse!! But if we did...I would totally have sung the song by Demi Lovato that says "who says I can't wear my converse with my dress..." it was gonna be great. I'll think of a new song though, no worries :) 
I have figured out the best diet ever!! I just stopped eating! I mean I can't quit cold turkey, so I do one weight loss shake and one small meal a day. I don't really know if it works but that is my life style as of this week :) 
My new pride in life is that I can finish a Rubik's cube :) If I don't do it for a few days, I have to look at my cheat sheet that I wrote, BUT the other day I did it all by myself with no help from Michael and no cheat sheet.
Do you guys watch make it or break it? It's back on TV which is very pleasant, I also enjoy Smash and Once Upon a Time. I have seen all of Bones, Psych, Myboys, Avatar the last airbender (the cartoon) on Netflix in the past four months. I don't get out much.. : P 
Well that's my life's update. This coming week is the last week of the semester and then we have finals but I haven't been to class in ages so I am a little concerned. 
Also, Danielle, we need to figure out for sure when we are going to Boise. I'm going to have to ask it off in advance and I'm looking for a new job so I want to make sure that I can have the leeway if we end up going. My Nana's house is like a hotel though...my Dad moved there to work during the week and he commutes back to St. A on the weekends. My Nana lives there (obviously) and so does her little brother whom she is taking care of.. and I think a week might be too long. Michael won't be able to go, so I'm thinking we will have to shorten the time. And she wants us to clean out her garage and do a yard sale to raise money for you..but didn't you already raise the money you needed? I don't picture cleaning as a vacation lol :) Love her, but she is silly. Berg, if you can have the same time and aren't too busy planning it would be way fun if you could come too! :) 
Well, love you both. Peace for now.
Hailey

Sweeeeet!

Yay! I am so glad you all posted! I miss you both! I love reading your posts. Thanks for taking the time to fill me in!

Danielle! I want to meet this Taylor boy! Picture?? I feel really bad about the whole Tim situation, I don't know any details. Chris was the one who told me you two had broken up. What a terrible friend am I to not know about your relationship woes?? Gee whiz.

Hailey! I'm sorry you are having trouble with your weight. I am trying to lose a little before my wedding. I know that has always been an issue with you, but remember curves are sexy, and you always look great. You're married and don't have anyone to impress! Michael loves you for who you are! That's something to remember.

Okay...I am so glad that you are both willing to come up for a bridal/bachelorette party! I don't have many friends, and I want mine to be super fun! If you two didn't come it would be me and Amanda and my old roommate Kallie! Boo! I am going to have a calm bridal shower for family (because they are very conservative) and then a fun bachelorette party with friends!

Things are going pretty well on the wedding front, it's just a lot of stuff to plan. I bought dresses for everyone, and I am PRAYING that they fit. If you two come up for a weekend or whatever, please let me know and we will have you come try them on. I have decided to nix the Converse idea (sorry Hailey, I knew you were excited!) but it's just not fitting in budget wise. If you could all get a black pair of flats, that'd be perfect. I am covering the cost of your dresses, so if you need to get a pair of flats for the wedding, then they aren't that expensive. You don't have to coordinate them, just have black flats. :)

Keep me updated! I love hearing about your lives!

Bergen

End of the semester HELL

Hey girlies!!!

I am soooo excited that y'all posted blogs! It has been way too long since we've all talked. Bergen, I completely understand you in the wedding stress department. I'd like to say that it's all worth it...but it's one day that leads to the best days of your life, so not really...but it looks nice for everyone else lol. I wanted to elope and not do the whole big wedding shindig, but Michael's mom wanted a big wedding for her lil man so I let her plan it. I made all of the decisions and she coordinated, which made it a lot less stressful on my part...but still way stressful. If you need anything, let me know. Also, if you hire someone to make a cake that isn't a professional...don't expect it to be how you wanted it!! It sucks that you don't see Chris very often. I wouldn't have made it to the wedding without Michael, that man has saved my life repeatedly. But just think, once you are married you get to be with him forever! Go to sleep with him every night, wake up with him every day, fight with him occasionally, and make lil bergis children!!! Bahaha :) I am so excited for you.

Danielle, Michael and I have the pass of all passes which means we get to go to 4 REAL games for free. So if you go to another, call me! I would love to meet this Taylor boy! :) I talked to Tim on his b-day and on mine, he seems to be doing alright. But I can understand why you feel mad with him, he had no grounds to break up with you and it was definitely a shock to us all. And I think Dustin is seeing someone, which he posts on Facebook making me think that maybe that's why he deleted you...so not to hurt you? Idk. But I am glad you have a new boy! I love new boys! :)

Bergen, I would totally make the trip for your parties and wedding! The summer should be easier for me, I am officially taking a summer off! I hate school. I am so ready to rip my eyes out. Michael reminds me of all my homeworks and studies with me which is good because otherwise I would have dropped out this semester.

About me: I am having an awful time. I love being married. I love Michael more than life itself. But I hate me. I have gained 15 lbs since my wedding which, having an awful self image anyway, screwed me over hard. I am sick of medication after medication so I stopped taking all of my pills. I switched pills in January and went through hell with withdrawals, and last week I decided to get off the pill I was on because it wasn't working. I went to the doc and he told me to live the gospel and exercise and I would be happy and that he wouldn't change my dose. I have been a member of the church just as long as I have had depression and even in highschool I was depressed but I exercised like twenty hours a week! But granted it was better then than it is now. Anyway, so now I am going through withdrawals. I am in therapy and he also tells me to exercise but I have been so sick from withdrawals that I can barely move. I stay in bed all day unless I have to be at work. Which brings me to work, I am sooo ready to quit. I hate my job. I hate school. I hate me. I need help and Michael is the only reason I am pressing forward and still breathing. Also, I was planning on hanging with you Berg when I went home for my b-day but I couldn't stop crying. I was a mess. I didn't even go to my dad's house, I just vegged and cried, and occasionally played with Rhonwen and Aiden.

Anyway, enough about me. I miss you people! I am excited that things are going well for you guys. Berg, married life is the best thing ever. Danielle, I want to meet this new boy.

Blog back!

Peace and love!

GIRLS!

I miss you both so much! Berg - thanks for posting! It'd be nice to keep this going a little better, but I definitely understand how busy you both are.

It's been about a year and a half since we started this blog - to help ourselves lose weight and stay in shape! Ha! I love it! Really though...it was started because we were all hating the start of our new lives in college. And I think I can speak for both of you when I say we were all pretty homesick and missing our best friends.

Well now Hailey has Michael, Berg has Chris and I'm so excited for both of you! It makes me happy to see my two best friends so happy and to find someone who makes them feel that way. I love both Michael and Chris! Berg, I'm stoked for you wedding in September! The idea of my best friends getting married still makes me stop and think for a while...it's still a weird idea, but I guess that's life right?!

Here's just a quick update of what's been going on! I'm going to Ethiopia for ten days in July for a journalism project! I'm so freakin excited! I can't even focus on school, because I actually want to do my research for the trip!

I'm not exactly sure if I'm single at this point. I've been hanging out with this boy, Taylor, A LOT! But we haven't exactly had a relationship talk. Just a brief explanation - he's freakin sexy and nicer than any of the guys I've dated before. PS...he's ambitious :) I seem to attract the opposite type of guy. We go to REAL soccer games in SLC, he takes me out for dinner a lot, we have lots of plans for the summer, and I think we're going on a trip to Cali when the semester ends.

I broke up with Tim 3 months ago and I'm dealing with it a differently than I thought I would. When I broke up with Dustin, I missed him a lot and though I never had an enormous desire to be back with him, I missed him as my best friend. Maybe it's because things ended differently and almost kind of ugly, but I think I'm in the "angry" stage of a break up. And I have been for about 2 months. I haven't talked to him for a very long time and it doesn't necessarily bother me...though I still hope he's happy. I don't know...I didn't think I would be as comfortable saying "I think I'm over him."

I feel like these are things both of you need to know, but I haven't gotten to talk to either of you like this in a long time! This reminds me - Berg I would love to come up for a bachelorette/bridal party! You need one! And if you need any help with anything, just let me know! I'm happy to help!

I love you and I miss you both :) More updates would be great! I think this is a great way to keep in touch! Stay happy girls!

-Danielle

Wedding Woes!

Hello Girlies!

Updating this blog has been well overdue! The last post was Hailey freaking out about her wedding, so it's only appropriate that I do the same, right? I think it's fun to read our past posts and see how much each of us has progressed since then. Hailey, your wedding was beautiful, and so were you!

As I begin the early planning of a wedding, I can understand where you were coming from. It's definitely not fun, exciting or stress free. I am finding that it is expensive, time consuming and very stressful! Which is not the way it looks in the movies at all! It's so much work for maybe 1/2 a day of pay off. I find myself being very apathetic about it all.

How are you doing? How is school? How is married life...singledom? Update me!

As far as bridesmaid stuff goes, I have dresses for you. I'm still undecided on shoes...so you may need to provide your own, but I will let you know when a final decision has been made.

I am already worried about how bridal shower/bachelorette parties are going to work since no one is around here anymore. If we plan one for summer sometime, would you guys come up for it? Hailey's was so fun to have everyone around, but I realize it's asking a lot for people to come up for me two times.

I am just trying to survive! Between work and planning this wedding, I hardly get to see Chris! I am so excited to marry him and to take this big new step in life, but it's funny that you have no time for your fiance before you get married. He's holding up well. I am sort of an anxious wreck and stress over things I can't control yet. He just keeps telling me he loves me and that everything will work out :P

I hope to read your posts soon. I think we need to keep this better!!! I miss you both and can't wait to hear about your lives.

Mucho Lovo!

Bergen