Danielle it's exciting being done with a year of college huh!!! Hang in there Berg, you're almost there!!! Dude, Danielle, I know what it's like to get attached to pets and I'm sorry sweetie. If I were there, I'd hug you. When my favorite kitten, Fidget, died, I made a whole scrap book about him...and I don't scrap book!
I'm stoked for the Bullet concert!!! It's what keeps me going...well, that and my new found love for Lost. It's an exciting show for me.
My life has been relatively drama free. I got stood up for a date on Friday but I wasn't really looking forward to it so I didn't really care...I txted Brandon on Saturday night to get his roommate's number so I could go to Matt's mission companion's homecoming with him but Brandon only said hi and whats up and then when I asked for the number he stopped txting me. Um my roommate hasn't talked to me too much, but I think that may be my fault. I think I may be intimidating and I think she knows I was upset about her inviting him over. Oh well, I'm over it. Um, Brad Pitt in Spanish is still just eye candy...but super great eye candy...I'll work on being more social with him. There's a new guy at work that I talk to but he has a girlfriend I believe. Oh and speaking of guys with girlfriends, Tyler keeps talking to me. He is actually txting me right now. We now sell chew and work and he bought some so I gave him this "i'm super disappointed in you" look and I think it got to him. He and I had a talk a few days ago and he was all "why couldn't you have just given me a chance and dated me" "i'm not sure i'm ready to get married and be in this relationship forever" and "I'm not happy and she doesn't like me" and blah blah blah. I kinda ripped him a new one and told him that he got me in the begining because I felt sorry for him and believed that things were bad between them but that i'm not stupid and people don't get engaged willingly when they are miserable together so that i didn't want to hear his crap...ha then today he was like "don't hate me, i know you love me." and then "don't you love me" i was like I don't believe in love lol its terrible because i am lonely and in my darkest hours i actually think about him...its TERRIBLE! No worries, i won't give in.
Then Brady and I were talking and he was like, I miss you, when are you coming back and will you let me know. and i told him about bullet and he sounded like he wanted to come! i told him i was going with my twin and old concert buddies but he still sounded tempted, he's lik i'm not too busy on tuesdays. idk it was weird.
Then I dreamt about Conner. It was a very steamy dream. That's all I'll say, and now I can't stop thinking about him! It's making me nuts!!!
So pretty much my drama is all just bad memories that arose within the week and are festering in my head. On the bright side, I have a ton of homework to do but waste my time online. I eat everything in sight but have decided to try the anorexic thing :) and i think i'll try to go home over memorial day weekend, woot woot! lol
I miss you both and love you guys tons! i can't wait to see you guys!!! Less than a week danielle!!!!
Peace Out.

Nearing the End..........YEEEESSSSS!

Hey girlies, sorry I haven't updated in a while. It doesn't mean I haven't read your updates :D Let me just say that I love how much I've stayed in contact with you girls. I think this blog was quite possibly the best idea we ever had. Although it strayed pretty far from it's original purpose, I am happy with how it ended up.

Lately it's been pretty good. I am finishing up school (with decent grades too) and having Dustin here has been fun. I still don't know what's going to happen with us in a few months......but that's a completely different story altogether. We haven't talked about it much.....but we will. And when we do, I'll keep you guys updated. Today has been kinda sad. One year ago Tilly died :( I don't know what you guys think of getting attached to pets, but geeze.....it was hard. I kinda wish I could have been with my family the past couple days, but I guess I'll have to wait.

On a lighter note, I'm moving home in 4 days, I'm getting my hair died, and I'm going to a kick ass concert in about a week! I'm am sooooooooooo looking forward to that. I'm really looking forward to seeing you girls again. It's been a long 4 months without you guys. Anyway, I will see you both soon! Hang in there because we have some fun times ahead of us :P Love you both!

Whoa oh oh it's MAGIC you know oh oh

Okay so I don't know why that's the title of this blog, but it came to me as I was typing so I'm just going to go with it. My life is relatively more drama free than yours Hailey, and may I just say now that he is a douche bag. And I totally called it. Just saying. Punch him. Then punch him again...then call him a f*cking douche bag...then punch him again. It'll be therapeutic for both of you. And maybe then he'll leave you the eff alone. Anyway, I have a week and a half left until my first year of college is over and may I just say that I feel way too young to be finishing my freshmen year of college? As I was walking home from aerobics today I thought about how amazing it is to me that we're all finishing up. Sometimes it seems like it has been forever since I've been at home, sometimes it seems like it's going by way too fast, but either way it's over and it's scary.

My parents are coming up to help us move next weekend and I am WAY excited to see my parents and to drive home with them and to start my summer adventures. I am not too excited about living at home again, but it's cheap and I won't starve, so I guess there are the perks. I will start working at Big J's again too...joy? I'm not quite sure how I feel about it at the moment, but a job is a job and money is what comes from having one. I guess I feel lucky to even have one set up.

I am already stressing over my math final...if I don't pass I'm going to be VERY upset. I am hoping for at least a C. If I don't get that I am going to punch the nearest wall. My other classes I'm not terribly worried about. World Religions final is making a book, which is no sweat I just have to get the supplies and find the time...then there is English. Paper due on Thursday...also no sweat. I guess I'm relatively lucky that I don't have MAJOR tests to study for. Although, stupid me, I'm already going psycho over the load I've signed up for at ISU. I'm already dreading finals week and I haven't even started.

You know the weird thing about my whole switching school drama is that things are falling into place much better than they ever did when I was trying to come up to Moscow. I wonder if that's a sign or if I just know how to navigate college better now that I'm already into it. Either way, I am loving that my registration and such is going pretty well. None of my scholarship information has transfered yet so right now I owe the school a lot of money, which freaks me out. But hopefully that will all fall into place too.

I really miss you two and am sad that when I get home you won't be there to help me deal with life's struggles. I can't believe I have to spend a summer without you Hailey. It will be so weird to be home and not have you here. I am so excited to spend time with you, Danielle. I guess it's bittersweet. We are definitely going to have an epic summer, and yes Hailey, that includes coming to spend a kick ass weekend with you! But it's still going to be weird to be home and working and having less friends there and...I don't know it's just going to be psycho. I'll deal though. I always do.

Miss you two tons! Keep me updated with your drama and lives and let's have a final chat session before Danielle and I move back home! Love you, miss you! Over and Out.

DOUCHE FREAKING BAGGGG!!!

If you read the title...yes, i'm a lil upset. Hailey got home from work yesterday. Ate weight watchers ice cream bar for dinner. Watched the office. Then Trevor came over and did homework with me (I used to be crushin on him but now not so much) anyway that was fun. Then Becky and her boy toy came over, Trevor left, and the three of us went hot tubing. Then at midnight we got kicked out of the hot tub and so I went back to my apartment. My roommate and her boytoy were out in the hall and I turned to becky and was like I can't get away from relationships it sucks! Then we hugged and I told her boyfriend that if he hurt her I'd gut him like a fish with my bare fingers and then I went inside. I walk inside and...FREAKING BRANDON AND HIS GIRLFRIEND ARE CUDDLING ON MY COUCH!!! WTF!! My roommate was there chatting away with them and I was like hi, then walked out. I was mad about three things: 1 that my roommate invited him and his girlfriend into my apartment, 2 that no one gave me a warning like the two in the hall both know about him and me but didn't feel like saying oh btw hailey you might not want to go inside for a while, and 3 that he had the balls to bring his girlfriend into my apartment and then be like HEY like nothing ever happened between us. Yes I get that I was his lil action doll and that we weren't anything more than beneficial friends but to just stop talking to me, fall off the face of the planet, and then bring the new flavor of the week to my apartment? UGH!!!! I was so distraught I was shaking. Then I went for a run, in the middle of the night, by myself because I was soooo grrrr. And when I walked into the hall my roomie was like "you're going running by yourself in the middle of the night" me "ya" "thats dangerous don't you think" "hmmm guess it is." "do you have your phone" ipod in and went running. I get back she's still in the hall, "That was a short run" I was like, I have class at 8am so i need to sleep." then I wanted to say, wow captain obvious your so good at keeping me posted on all the small crap that i don't care about, where were you when i needed warning like i still would have gone in but i'da been prepared to be like, hey brandon hows it been, oh you must be the new flavor of the week, good luck with that, ok its past midnight get the f out of my apartment :) see, it could have gone so much better than, ah! hi...k bye. ugh i'd say i'm royally pissed but i'm more just uber annoyed. like UBER ANNOYED!!!! grrr.
then brad pitt wasn't in class today and I look super cute :( fml.
Peace out.

missin you

So my life is relatively drama free. I sleep when I have free time because staying awake is just a hassel. But Spring term has officially started and I am taking 9 credit hours which is the max you can take so I've been a little nervous about that. I'm taking Spanish and my teacher barely says a single word in English! It's super nuts for a begining class but there is this boy in there that looks like Brad Pitt lol he's kinda delicious. I'm also in Psych Stats which seems like a big load but manageable too...well I hope so anyway. I spent my free time today sleeping and reading my stats book in between commercials lol. I'm also in Intro to Psych Major and I think that i will probably major in psych and do family counciling or child counciling...I'm not sure yet. Who knows, maybe I'll go clinical...Idk. But this term is only seven weeks but has fourteen weeks of work so it'll be crazy. My first test is on Monday...AAAHHH! It's cool, I'll survive...hopefully.
Boy drama is kinda zilch. I haven't talked to Brandon since forever and he is probably enjoying his quality time with Grace...so whatev. Tyler at work has been talking to me more, like I dyed my hair so he's all "oh new boy you're trying to impress?" and "you look cute" and "why don't we ever talk anymore or hang" ya...ugh right...but whatev, I've fallen once and I won't do it again so there. I also caught up on my missionary writing and finally wrote Peter. I don't really know what to think about the whole thing...I fell for him too hard and too fast and I think I love the idea of him and the way he treated me and how perfect he is...so I've carried that with me for over a year now. He's gonna come back and not talk to me or ever see me again and he'll move on to his own version of Grace...which sucks big fat hairy balls by the way! I miss him but his letters tell me he could care less so I know I've got to move on...just like I do with every guy. Out of the 15 guys that I've kissed he and Conner were the most meaningful to me...and Brandon I think I was just super hopeful for. It's gay. But whatev. Um I went on like a three mile run the other day and did zumba a few days before that but other than that I haven't worked out like at all. Eating all apples does a body wonders but of course I suck at sticking to diets...and paying tuition and for books and such I realize how on the verge of being dirt poor I am so my spending has to be extremely limited. That's a huge stress for me right now...crazy that I'm worrying about that and Mike just bought a new pick up truck. Granted he sold our other trucks to buy it but whatev, lol it sounds nice tho I have yet to see it. I miss you guys. I watched the longest yard with my roommates and they were pretty disgusted by it...it's like me favorite movie!!! And the other night, I was on a roll and emotionally whacked like I often get and kept slipping and saying that things sucked balls or people were douche nozzles and my roommate said I was "interesting" and this other guy there said that it's sad that girls are getting to be more disgusting than guys. Yeah...I've sure got great friends here...:( I'm kinda blue right now and not sure why. I am uber stoked for the concert Danielle! It is gonna be awesome!!! And Bergen I can't wait til you both come up here and we can tear up the town together! All three of us!!! I vote that when we grow up and are done with this stupid college gig we should be neighbors or something lol then we could all go to the gym together and babysit for each other and have dinner together and rate each other's husbands...lol :) k maybe not the last one. But I need friends and I miss you.
Well its midnight and I have work in the morning...guess I should probably hit the sack. Love you both tons can't wait for this summer! Peace out!

Optimism!

Okay so here's how it's goin down with me right now....actually I've been talking to you guys regularly so you pretty much know! haha. But I'll tell ya anyway. 4 weeks left! I am sooo ready for the semester to be over, oh you don't know how close I am to saying "EFF THIS! I'M DONE!" But I figure there's only like 2 weeks left of class....I better finish hu? lol So I have the rest of this week which is like two days. And then two weeks of class....oh my gosh I'm so excited. Except for not at the same time because I have so much crap going on! But that's college life right? Finals weeks goes like this: May 9th (sunday) - last day of work, May 10th - science final, May 11th - free day probably packing and shiz, May 12th - math final, May 13th - MY BIRTHDAY! and probably lots of packing, and I'll probably be moving home Friday May 14th.....unless I suddenly decide to move on the 13th. Who knows?! But I'm way stoked to be home and chill for a while! I am anticipating an awesome summer! I get to start it off with a fun little vaca to SLC with some wild buddies and then meeting Hailey for a sick concert! WHOO! And then I'll get to come back home and start work, which I'm not expecting to be too bad. And then Bergen and I will start our hostile take over of BYU - Provo! (mwahahahahahaha!) And we're just gonna have an awesome summer......can you tell I'm being optimistic right now? ha. I've still got the Dustin situation, I dunno what to do about that, but I'll get it figured out. We still have a lot of talking to do..........we'll see how that works out. But there's my little update for ya! Hailey, I'm so excited you finished your first year of college! Didn't it go by fast? Yeah wow! I'm way stoke to see you soon! We're gonna have a freakin sick time! And Berg, your boy drama is not fun...like what the shiz? I'm really sorry your boys are givin you problems....only a few more weeks and we'll be able to rant about them together haha! I love you girls and I will keep talking to you! I miss you and I hope to see you both soon!

What is the DEAL!?

Okay--these are the words I've been saying a lot lately. "What is the deal?" So, as you can see from my last post, Zak texted me randomly and we talked for like 4 hours about nothing. Of course I was all giddy and confused and the next day I was still pissed and bitter and there's no way that will happen again. Alright. So I think you both know that Jase wasn't talking to me. He came off his mission because of a broken collar bone and decided he isn't going back and then was being a douche bag and not talking to me. Well today, he IMed me on facebook and we talked a little bit. So here it comes---WHAT IS THE DEAL. Suddenly all of the guys I've been interested in and that have all just disappeared from my life come bounding back into it! I don't know what the deal is, but I don't think I'm prepared for it. I am just really stressed about ISU and everything and I am ready to come home and not worry about college crap for a while. I need to focus and all of these boys talking to me steals the limelight and of course...attention from boys is wonderful so that's what I focus on instead of school :P I guess I am more annoyed with myself than anything. I thought I was over all of this male drama, but it makes me so happy when they talk to me, it's ridiculous. I need to bridle my emotions and push them out of my life for the moment. So there's my rant. Other than that, life is pretty good. I'm stressing over finals and normal college life crap, but I'll be alright. Hailey--I'm super proud of you feeling good about your finals. :p Even if you're not feeling so great, I'm glad you made it through them all and that you can relax a little bit. Enjoy that pizza and ice cream!! And seriously...I go to the gym...but that does NOT mean that I am cute and fit. :P I eat enough food afterwards to cancel out the work I do. I just love how I feel after working out...that's a huge reason I do it. Danielle--I really enjoyed our talk we had the other day. I am excited to spend quality time with you this summer and get to know you even better! I'm sad you can't be with us Hailey..but fear not! We are already planning a hostile take over of BYU provo :D *evil laughter* I hope that both of you are staying mostly drama-free and stress-free and that life is going good for you. I leave you with a thought: Life Isn't About Finding Yourself--Life Is About Creating Yourself. :0 I liked it. Over and Out.