End of the semester HELL

Hey girlies!!!

I am soooo excited that y'all posted blogs! It has been way too long since we've all talked. Bergen, I completely understand you in the wedding stress department. I'd like to say that it's all worth it...but it's one day that leads to the best days of your life, so not really...but it looks nice for everyone else lol. I wanted to elope and not do the whole big wedding shindig, but Michael's mom wanted a big wedding for her lil man so I let her plan it. I made all of the decisions and she coordinated, which made it a lot less stressful on my part...but still way stressful. If you need anything, let me know. Also, if you hire someone to make a cake that isn't a professional...don't expect it to be how you wanted it!! It sucks that you don't see Chris very often. I wouldn't have made it to the wedding without Michael, that man has saved my life repeatedly. But just think, once you are married you get to be with him forever! Go to sleep with him every night, wake up with him every day, fight with him occasionally, and make lil bergis children!!! Bahaha :) I am so excited for you.

Danielle, Michael and I have the pass of all passes which means we get to go to 4 REAL games for free. So if you go to another, call me! I would love to meet this Taylor boy! :) I talked to Tim on his b-day and on mine, he seems to be doing alright. But I can understand why you feel mad with him, he had no grounds to break up with you and it was definitely a shock to us all. And I think Dustin is seeing someone, which he posts on Facebook making me think that maybe that's why he deleted you...so not to hurt you? Idk. But I am glad you have a new boy! I love new boys! :)

Bergen, I would totally make the trip for your parties and wedding! The summer should be easier for me, I am officially taking a summer off! I hate school. I am so ready to rip my eyes out. Michael reminds me of all my homeworks and studies with me which is good because otherwise I would have dropped out this semester.

About me: I am having an awful time. I love being married. I love Michael more than life itself. But I hate me. I have gained 15 lbs since my wedding which, having an awful self image anyway, screwed me over hard. I am sick of medication after medication so I stopped taking all of my pills. I switched pills in January and went through hell with withdrawals, and last week I decided to get off the pill I was on because it wasn't working. I went to the doc and he told me to live the gospel and exercise and I would be happy and that he wouldn't change my dose. I have been a member of the church just as long as I have had depression and even in highschool I was depressed but I exercised like twenty hours a week! But granted it was better then than it is now. Anyway, so now I am going through withdrawals. I am in therapy and he also tells me to exercise but I have been so sick from withdrawals that I can barely move. I stay in bed all day unless I have to be at work. Which brings me to work, I am sooo ready to quit. I hate my job. I hate school. I hate me. I need help and Michael is the only reason I am pressing forward and still breathing. Also, I was planning on hanging with you Berg when I went home for my b-day but I couldn't stop crying. I was a mess. I didn't even go to my dad's house, I just vegged and cried, and occasionally played with Rhonwen and Aiden.

Anyway, enough about me. I miss you people! I am excited that things are going well for you guys. Berg, married life is the best thing ever. Danielle, I want to meet this new boy.

Blog back!

Peace and love!

GIRLS!

I miss you both so much! Berg - thanks for posting! It'd be nice to keep this going a little better, but I definitely understand how busy you both are.

It's been about a year and a half since we started this blog - to help ourselves lose weight and stay in shape! Ha! I love it! Really though...it was started because we were all hating the start of our new lives in college. And I think I can speak for both of you when I say we were all pretty homesick and missing our best friends.

Well now Hailey has Michael, Berg has Chris and I'm so excited for both of you! It makes me happy to see my two best friends so happy and to find someone who makes them feel that way. I love both Michael and Chris! Berg, I'm stoked for you wedding in September! The idea of my best friends getting married still makes me stop and think for a while...it's still a weird idea, but I guess that's life right?!

Here's just a quick update of what's been going on! I'm going to Ethiopia for ten days in July for a journalism project! I'm so freakin excited! I can't even focus on school, because I actually want to do my research for the trip!

I'm not exactly sure if I'm single at this point. I've been hanging out with this boy, Taylor, A LOT! But we haven't exactly had a relationship talk. Just a brief explanation - he's freakin sexy and nicer than any of the guys I've dated before. PS...he's ambitious :) I seem to attract the opposite type of guy. We go to REAL soccer games in SLC, he takes me out for dinner a lot, we have lots of plans for the summer, and I think we're going on a trip to Cali when the semester ends.

I broke up with Tim 3 months ago and I'm dealing with it a differently than I thought I would. When I broke up with Dustin, I missed him a lot and though I never had an enormous desire to be back with him, I missed him as my best friend. Maybe it's because things ended differently and almost kind of ugly, but I think I'm in the "angry" stage of a break up. And I have been for about 2 months. I haven't talked to him for a very long time and it doesn't necessarily bother me...though I still hope he's happy. I don't know...I didn't think I would be as comfortable saying "I think I'm over him."

I feel like these are things both of you need to know, but I haven't gotten to talk to either of you like this in a long time! This reminds me - Berg I would love to come up for a bachelorette/bridal party! You need one! And if you need any help with anything, just let me know! I'm happy to help!

I love you and I miss you both :) More updates would be great! I think this is a great way to keep in touch! Stay happy girls!

-Danielle

Wedding Woes!

Hello Girlies!

Updating this blog has been well overdue! The last post was Hailey freaking out about her wedding, so it's only appropriate that I do the same, right? I think it's fun to read our past posts and see how much each of us has progressed since then. Hailey, your wedding was beautiful, and so were you!

As I begin the early planning of a wedding, I can understand where you were coming from. It's definitely not fun, exciting or stress free. I am finding that it is expensive, time consuming and very stressful! Which is not the way it looks in the movies at all! It's so much work for maybe 1/2 a day of pay off. I find myself being very apathetic about it all.

How are you doing? How is school? How is married life...singledom? Update me!

As far as bridesmaid stuff goes, I have dresses for you. I'm still undecided on shoes...so you may need to provide your own, but I will let you know when a final decision has been made.

I am already worried about how bridal shower/bachelorette parties are going to work since no one is around here anymore. If we plan one for summer sometime, would you guys come up for it? Hailey's was so fun to have everyone around, but I realize it's asking a lot for people to come up for me two times.

I am just trying to survive! Between work and planning this wedding, I hardly get to see Chris! I am so excited to marry him and to take this big new step in life, but it's funny that you have no time for your fiance before you get married. He's holding up well. I am sort of an anxious wreck and stress over things I can't control yet. He just keeps telling me he loves me and that everything will work out :P

I hope to read your posts soon. I think we need to keep this better!!! I miss you both and can't wait to hear about your lives.

Mucho Lovo!

Bergen

My big day

Hello ladies,

It's been a long time since anyone has posted and so I feel the need to do so.

Wedding planning is the pits. It is not my cup of tea at all. It's especially hard being away from home and trying to plan and trying to please everyone. I was going to do a ring ceremony because my family wanted to see me walk down the isle but that was too much stress for me. I have three father figures to walk me down the isle and no one thinks they all deserve it and so it would be a mess. Evan and I talked about it years ago and he said he would do it, but now he said that it would hurt my dad too much...so it's not happening at all. Then there is the daddy daughter dance to deal with. My reception is going to be a dance party so of course a daddy daughter dance is expected...I just have to coordinate it with three guys...except I don't think John will come...It's harder than I ever expected it being.

I went to my dad's house last time I was home and it was clean. It was noon and he hadn't poured a glass yet and didn't the whole time I was there. That was the only time that I have ever seen my dad remotely sober...it was so good! My Nana about had a heart attack when she heard me say I didn't want a daddy daughter dance at the wedding and she said that I am lucky to have more than one daddy to love me when so many kids don't have any. I never felt that way growing up, I grew up without having a dad...but now he is trying and I can see that, which means a lot to me but I feel like maybe I am still holding our past against him. I don't know what to do.

But I do want to have a mommy dance because I love my mom and I think Michael should dance with his mom ;) then I expect you all to dance the night away with me so it's not weird and wall flowery okay.

My colors are green and silver, Michael's mom is wearing a silver dress and his sister is in green. Dress shopping is stressing my mom out, she's like me and is never happy with how she looks, but she is wearing a black sparkly dress and the sparkles are silver so I say that's matching enough. Maybe we could incorporate black into the wardrobes so that she doesn't feel bad? Something about not wearing black to a wedding makes her feel bad...and we all know how well our group of girls looks in black ;)

The wedding is 35 days away today! Michael and I are doing pictures on Saturday and I don't know how to do my hair. Suggestions are more than welcome. I also think that I will be purchasing Toms wedges lol because I need comfy dancing shoes!!!

I'm also freaking out about my size. I weigh the same that I have weighed since last year but I feel like I'm not pretty enough or small enough and it's really getting to me. I have freak outs all the time and am pretty much an emotional time bomb waiting for the right straw to set me off. It's miserable and I feel bad for Michael. He didn't sign up to be stuck with a psycho for forever, but he knows how I am and he is who I cry to and he hasn't called it off, so I must have something going for me right?

So, how are things with Berg and Chris? hmm? It's bring a date to the wedding so he better come Berg. Also we were driving back from Michael's place and I saw Berg Mortuary and it made me laugh :) How are things with Danielle and Tim? Wedding bells yet? Sorry sweetie I didn't mean to say that in front of your mom, I figured if you and Tim had talked about it that you would have said something to her...oops ;)

I miss you guys and can't wait to see you. Until then, peace.

I miss you guys. I feel like we haven't had a girls' night in years.

Update Finally

Hey ladies,

I finally decided to post an update! I just got back from a trip home for Easter weekend. I can't say that I'm glad to be back. I am pretty sick of Pocatello right now. Blah. I am so burnt out on school. That's all we've ever done. Go to school. I think it's stupid.

Nothing is final yet, but I'm fairly certain I'll be moving back home for this summer. If I can't find a job here, then I'll search in IF and St. A, but I'm pretty sure I'll be working at the Daycare in IF. I'll still live at home though. What are your plans? I know Danielle is moving home, but I don't know what you're doing Hailey. I just hope this summer is as fun as last summer. I am ready for fun again. School is draining me. I only have 2 more weeks left. Yes!

There really isn't much of a story to tell about Chris and me. We started talking on Facebook one day and that lead to texting which lead to a date, which eventually ended up with us being dating. Pretty uneventful. I can honestly say I never thought that would happen. I didn't plan it or think about it before ever. But I'm happy. We get along really well, he's the nicest guy and so far so good. If you want more details, feel free to ask. But really, that's about all there is.

I'm not doing so hot this semester, which I am pretty upset about. Like I said, pretty burnt out on school. I am trying to get into the culinary arts program here. I can do food pretty well. I should be able to, because freak, I have gained almost 20 pound since being here. Pretty freaking stupid. Life is just blah right now. I am ready to move home and then come back after a break. Danielle, I am glad you will be home,we will have to get together like we did last summer. Are you planning on working at Big J's again?

Hailey, I know you're staying for school, and I think you're crazy. How the crap can you afford constant schooling? I would go insane. How are you doing? How is your man? Danielle, how are things between you and Tim? I feel like I'm so behind. Please fill me in! I miss you two, I think we need to get together soon for the sake of my sanity. I feel like I'm drowning in life. Only Ben and Jerry can save me now. Have a good day ladies!

Catching up

Hey ladies!!
Okay so it has been WAY too long since we've done this, and I agree with Danielle, we need to keep in touch better.
Berg, I feel like we all want the story on you and Chris, your pics on Facebook are super cute btw, so hows that whole shindig working out for ya?
Danielle, I'm way jealous that you are going home for the summer so you both will just have to take a roadtrip to see me. :) Oh, and I'm stoked to see you this week at the concert! I still need to buy my tickets but I'll do that today.
Okay, catching up on me time:
So things with Peter didn't work out. We didn't really try..it was just that there was really nothing there. But I'm not upset about it at all. Having him to write to and destress me was a huge blessing for me while he was on his mission.
Michael and I have been on and off all semester. We started out just using each other and then got feelings so cut it off and then realized we wanted to be together and then cut it off and then really got together and then he got freaked and broke up with me on my birthday. Well we are back together and this time is the real deal. I mean REAL DEAL lemon peel, like marriage real deal. We talk about it a lot and when he tells me goodnight/goodbye at night he always says that he can't wait until he can just sleep with me in his arms...:) so cute! A lot of people think I'm stupid or crazy or naive or whatever for getting back with him. I've never legitimately had my heart broken until him...I don't think I've ever given my whole self to anyone except him. I thought I loved Peter, and I do love him, he has been a big part of my life for the past two years, but now its just friend love. I love Conner and probably always will (ps he is like my favorite person to talk to now) but I never openly told him I was in love with him. Michael is different, I feel like I can't tell him enough how much I love him. He is like me in guy form. I don't have to finish sentences when I am with him because he knows how I think, and he thinks the same. I can be my crude, sarcastic, and relatively dirty self around him and I am just comfortable with him. I can sit and do nothing with him and be completely content. We are reading the Continuous Atonement together every night (the bishop recommended it to both of us, so we are doing it together) and it is so good. I definitely recommend the book, but it has been amazing to just sit and read it with him. It's exactly what both of us need to hear and it gives us a chance to invite the Spirit and the Lord into our relationship which we both feel is important. He is a psychology major but he wants to be a doctor. He is probably coming to Rise Against with me because he doesn't want me to drive alone, and he won't tell you this, but he loves them too. We have the same taste in music and movies and it's just so right. The only things we can't agree on are that he says he doesn't like Idaho and we can't agree on how many kids to have because he thinks 17 is too many...but we'll work it out. He is coming home with me in the near future to meet the fam..though he is slightly terrified because he knows that they know that he broke my heart and he feels like he needs forever to make that up to me. I am having Easter dinner with his family so that will be interesting. Omgosh guys, I really like this guy! This is so weird for me to be so comfortable liking a guy and having it last longer than a month! I don't know what I'm doing but I like it!!!
My last day of classes is tomorrow. Finals start on Saturday except Spanish and Water Aerobics start this week. I'm actually not too stressed about it. I bought a punching bag and named him Manny Mensworth (I bought him when I was mad at Michael because I needed something to punch) and I love him soooo much. He's padded and 5'5 or so and just a blast to beat up on. I move in with Becky in two weeks so that will be fun. Other than that...not a whole lot is going on here.
I miss you both and agree with Danielle, we need a BYOBJ/JTMD night asap.
Love and laughs friends, peace out!

It's been...how long?!?!?!?

So I think it's been like.....6 months since I've even checked this. I'm sure no one else checks it either, but I'm going to tell you both to check it...so...yeah. ha :) Okay can I first say that.....I think we should use this more. It worked REALLY well for the first...like 4 months! Let's do it again! Because I miss you both.

For me, the semester is almost over! 3 1/2 more weeks and then I'M FREE!!! For a few months anyway. I'm going home for the summer and I'm stoked! XD What are you guys doing for the summer? Well I know that Hailey is staying...because you're crazy and doing more school. Jk love you. Berg what is your plan for the summer?! Brad told me that you changed..or were thinking of changing your major. How is school and the poky life going for you?! So much better than Moscow? You seem to have tons of fun with your roommates! And how is Chris?! I think it's so cute that you're dating :) Is the long distance relationship working out? An hour and a half isn't bad right? Sorry there's so many questions, we just haven't talked in so long!!!!

I guess I'll take the time to talk about me. Wow that sounds conceded. but it's not I promise! Anyway..I've been working at American Eagle. Love the discount...hate the hours. I'm a bad salesperson. But I might get put on freight soon so that would be exciting! I'm thinking my study for the next 2 years will be double major in speech and public relations and do a music minor. But that's subject to change :) Hailey...props to you for keeping your major, holy eff! Dustin is going to Iraq...pretty soon actually and I've talked to him a bit since he got out of boot camp. Things are....fine I guess. He still really wants to get back together, but I just keep saying no. Just doesn't feel right I guess. I've been talking to Tim a lot lately...you both know that ha. We'll see what happens.

When is the next time both of you will be home?!?!? Because I feel like it's been too long since we've have a BYOBJ and JTMD night. Love you both. A lot. :)